After so many weeks with 70, 80 or more hours, this week got really quiet. We have finished almost all of our defects, functional specs and other activities. Now it is up to the cutover team to make the production system work. There is little to no urgent work left to be done for this week.
It is strange, how the body and mind adapts to the high level of stress and pressure, which I experienced in the last few months. Now that the stress is gone, it feels numb. Almost like if you have been exposed to loud music and then the party is over. There is still a sound in your ears and it stops you from settling down.
I feel, now that the stress level is lower that I am not ‘centered’ anymore. There is something missing. Somehow the purpose got lost and you have to redefine what you’re aiming at. All the time during the last 12 months, we worked towards the GoLive. Now that we have reached that, we need to answer the question what comes after.
Unfortunately, in about one week the chaos will start again – once we are live. So, there is no point in adjusting to the new situation – it won’t last for too long. But after a few weeks the support phase will be over too and this time there won’t be too much after that. A logical break so to speak.
I have to ask myself what I want to do with the rest of the year until I turn 31. This is some sort of quarter-life crisis I suppose. Will have to work on my next career move, leave accenture and start something new.